At least it's Spring now...

[elwinfortuna]

So, it's been a little while since I posted here, and there's multiple reasons for that, but they mostly come back to February and March are difficult months for me due to SAD. One thing that happened was that I sliced my finger open quite deeply with a kitchen knife while cutting up carrots. It's all healed up now but it effectively stopped me from using a keyboard for a good couple of weeks. Also, I had Covid, round 2, this time it's personal. It was pretty mild, and two weeks later, I'm more or less recovered.

In the midst of all that, some coursework was due, and because of see above re finger, Covid, and SAD, it did not go well for me. It was not good, and I knew it was not good, but that doesn't mean I wasn't disappointed when I got the marked assignment back.

Anyway, I have one more essay to do before I finish this module, so hopefully I can go out on a somewhat better showing. This course so far has been difficult in ways I wasn't expecting as well as ways I was. My brain feels like it's not nearly as sharp as it was when I was twenty and easily juggling seven classes, a retail job, and a burgeoning fanfic career. Now just one class kind of wrecks me.

Something else that's really bothering me is that I appear to completely lack inspiration with regard to writing anything right now. The well is dry, the music is silent, and despite having both time and energy, I was unable to force even a single word of any type of creative work out of myself. This is scaring me a little; I often lack time, I often lack energy, but rarely do I lack inspiration.

So I'll probably be doing something else to fulfil my creative needs for the moment. I really want to pull out my jewellery supplies, for the first time since 2020, and make some necklaces or something. We'll see how it goes.

Comments

[corvidology]

Sorry to read about the injury and Covid but glad to read you're on the mend. ♥

I hope you start hearing voices again soon. Erm... ;D

[elwinfortuna]

Those are my emotional support voices! :D

[greatandgrey]

Sorry to hear it's been tough. Hope everything improves soon--hugs if you need them! 💕

[elwinfortuna]

Hoping so! *hugs*

[lilacsigil]

I mean, when you were 20 you weren't also juggling COVID x2! I hope things pick up for you now that the seasons have turned.

[zero_pixel_count]

Sympathy with the... everything, ye little fishes that is too much everything.

And hard same on the sharper at 20. 2000 feels like a whole other world, and somehow between then and now I forgot how to learn.

Those inspirational fallow seasons are The Worst :( But oooh jewellery, what kind of thing are you thinking of?

[elwendell]

Life runs in cycles. Your writing mojo will return with time. Mine is on strike too, but I know frompast experience that it will return at some point.

[spiced_wine]

Something else that's really bothering me is that I appear to completely lack inspiration with regard to writing anything right now. The well is dry, the music is silent, and despite having both time and energy, I was unable to force even a single word of any type of creative work out of myself. This is scaring me a little; I often lack time, I often lack energy, but rarely do I lack inspiration.

Tolkien got completely blocked at Balin’s Tomb for a year, apparently, writing LoTR. It happens and I think the effects of covid and the last few years can definitely have that kind of fallout. It will come back 🤗

[barakta]

Finger injuries can be remarkably disabling. ObFuckCovid too. Hope you start to feel better soon, it may well be lingery Covidy nonsense which is contributing to the things.

[independence1776]

I'm glad to hear from you and even more glad your finger is healed and you've pretty much recovered from Covid (again).

Good luck with the essay and I hope the creative juices return soon.

[chestnut_pod]

I am glad to hear you're on the mend from your injury and illness - I hope the SAD eases soon as well.

[narya_flame]

Hopefully some time in the spring sunshine will spark inspiration again ✨️ I think this does happen from time to time and it's upsetting when writing and creativity mean so much. But it will come back.

I'm so glad you're feeling better.

[ludy]

Sorry that there has been assorted Difficult. Hope you get to do and enjoy whatever flavour of creativity works best for you in the current moment

[azurelunatic]

I miss the energy of my 20s, but goodness gracious I am glad for the years of experience that have come since.

[grundyscribbling]

Aw, sorry about the injury, Covid, and rough time with SAD!

Hope you're able to finish your module out on a good note.

Give yourself some "fallow" time on the writing front. The ideas will come back if you give your writing brain a bit of a rest.