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elwinfortuna) wrote2023-04-12 04:29 pm
elwinfortuna) wrote2023-04-12 04:29 pm
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At least it's Spring now...
So, it's been a little while since I posted here, and there's multiple reasons for that, but they mostly come back to February and March are difficult months for me due to SAD. One thing that happened was that I sliced my finger open quite deeply with a kitchen knife while cutting up carrots. It's all healed up now but it effectively stopped me from using a keyboard for a good couple of weeks. Also, I had Covid, round 2, this time it's personal. It was pretty mild, and two weeks later, I'm more or less recovered.
In the midst of all that, some coursework was due, and because of see above re finger, Covid, and SAD, it did not go well for me. It was not good, and I knew it was not good, but that doesn't mean I wasn't disappointed when I got the marked assignment back.
Anyway, I have one more essay to do before I finish this module, so hopefully I can go out on a somewhat better showing. This course so far has been difficult in ways I wasn't expecting as well as ways I was. My brain feels like it's not nearly as sharp as it was when I was twenty and easily juggling seven classes, a retail job, and a burgeoning fanfic career. Now just one class kind of wrecks me.
Something else that's really bothering me is that I appear to completely lack inspiration with regard to writing anything right now. The well is dry, the music is silent, and despite having both time and energy, I was unable to force even a single word of any type of creative work out of myself. This is scaring me a little; I often lack time, I often lack energy, but rarely do I lack inspiration.
So I'll probably be doing something else to fulfil my creative needs for the moment. I really want to pull out my jewellery supplies, for the first time since 2020, and make some necklaces or something. We'll see how it goes.
In the midst of all that, some coursework was due, and because of see above re finger, Covid, and SAD, it did not go well for me. It was not good, and I knew it was not good, but that doesn't mean I wasn't disappointed when I got the marked assignment back.
Anyway, I have one more essay to do before I finish this module, so hopefully I can go out on a somewhat better showing. This course so far has been difficult in ways I wasn't expecting as well as ways I was. My brain feels like it's not nearly as sharp as it was when I was twenty and easily juggling seven classes, a retail job, and a burgeoning fanfic career. Now just one class kind of wrecks me.
Something else that's really bothering me is that I appear to completely lack inspiration with regard to writing anything right now. The well is dry, the music is silent, and despite having both time and energy, I was unable to force even a single word of any type of creative work out of myself. This is scaring me a little; I often lack time, I often lack energy, but rarely do I lack inspiration.
So I'll probably be doing something else to fulfil my creative needs for the moment. I really want to pull out my jewellery supplies, for the first time since 2020, and make some necklaces or something. We'll see how it goes.